It’s a hard job.

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The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. Psalm 103:8

 

I read this verse and it seems pretty much impossible to carry this out as a mom. Oh, I would like to say that I do this day in, day out. But I don’t.

The endless questions, the repeating of the same phrases over and over and over again, the spilled juice on the newly mopped floor, the endless stuff laying around, the complaining, the yelling, the drama, the “too cool for school” attitude.

Yes, it all gets to me from time to time. And I forget what I am called to do. To be a mom is a high calling. It is a blessing. It is hard. If I am honest I don’t treat God that much different than my kids treat me at times. I complain. I yell. I mess up and he graciously points me to His truth again and again and again. I can be drama and put off the attitude that I am “too cool for school”. But how does he respond?

With compassion, grace, slow to anger, abounding in love.

He’s called me to do the same with those He’s entrusted me with. Even on the hard days.

Because that’s when we both need it most.

Sure signs of springs.

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There are some tell tale signs that Spring and warm weather have arrived. Whether it is here to say I don’t know but for now our family is embracing it with open arms. Here are some sure signs that Spring is here or near.

  • Dinner prep and dinner time are way later than normal.
  • The slamming of the doors as they kids go in and out. In and out. In and out.
  • TV is hardly on.
  • Little people don’t ask for as many snacks because they are too busy playing.
  • Piles of flip flops by each of the doors.
  • Neighborhood kids fill our yard.
  • Bikes, wagons, scooters, sidewalk chalk and baseballs and bats little the yard and driveway.
  • Brown murky bath water.
  • Kids are sleeping in .2 seconds after their head hits the pillow.
  • Smiling faces all around.

Yes, we are warm weather people around here. We’ll take it any day!

Enjoy that sunshine, won’t you!

He pulled up a chair.

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Already, there had been crying, shouting, discipline required, countless questions and demands. It was only 7:30 am. I’ve had the touch of the flu this weekend. My energy was low. I sat in the chair attempting to read my bible amidst the chaos that was swirling around me and I thought “I don’t know if I can do this today. I just don’t know.”

Have you had those days? Please say yes.

You feel tired, alone, overwhelmed, D O N E. Not a good feeling. Especially when the day is only hours old.

As I was sitting in my chair this morning wondering how I was going to get through the day I remembered a verse in Psalm 51 that I was reading this week.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me.  Psalm 51:12

In those moments of “Ahhhhh! How am I going to do this?!?”

Remember He’s there. He hears our cry. He understands. He gets it. He’s there to restore us. To remind us of the joy we have because of Him.

He’s there in the moments of desperation. The quietness when we have nothing to say because we just don’t know where to start. He’s there to fill us, to sustain us. To give us the willing spirit when we don’t have it within ourselves.

Restoration. Joy. Willing spirit. Sustenance.
He freely gives.

I’m so thankful I’m not on my own. Or I might still be sitting in my chair. But instead. He heard me. And He pulled up a chair beside.

And for the record. Even with the touch of the flu, we had a wonderful day.

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I do. And I don’t.

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This idea has been rolling around the blogsphere. A list of DO’s and DON’Ts of our family. It’s so easy to compare ourselves to other friends, mama’s, wives, families. It’s also easy to focus on things I DON’T do. But like my friend Julie said there are a lot of things I do DO. What works for your family may not work for mine and vice versa. One thing that is true, we all are trying to figure out what is best for our own family. And also for me where God is leading me as a woman of God, wife and mom. So here we are.

I do…

  • have music playing almost all day long and it’s not always Christian music. Yes, my kids know who Justin Bieber is and we often have dance parties dancing away to JB.
  • give my kids band aids whenever they think they “need” it. We go through countless band aids.
  • menu planning but don’t like to do it. It’s only because it’s a necessity.
  • let my kids mix as many cereals as they want at breakfast. The more the merrier.
  • go to bed often with a pile of clean clothes on the floor that need to be folded.
  • clean our house on Fridays.
  • work out most days.
  • make muffins, pancakes, waffles and cookies from scratch quite often. I like to bake.
  • read to my kids often.
  • enjoy doing crafts with the kids.
  • make a BIG deal out of birthdays.
  • let our kids watch TV during breakfast.
  • make our kids do morning chores with no allowance or reward. It’s part of being in our family.
  • pray with our kids every night.

I don’t…

  • make dinner on Fridays. It’s always dinner out.
  • change our sheets nearly as often as I should.
  • wash my girls hair nearly as often as it needs to be.
  • go to bed with a dirty kitchen.
  • shower soon after work outs and quite often run errands or whatever smelling pretty funky.
  • iron. Only if needed.
  • scrapbook or get many pictures developed. It’s all on the computer and my phone.
  • get intimidated by household projects.
  • feed my kids veggies every day.
  • buy very much organic food.
  • give my kids vitamins.
  • go shopping. If I do, it’s to Hobby Lobby or Jo Ann Fabrics.
  • homeschool.

 

Fillin’ up.

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My fuel for the morning.
I’m feeling it.
Physically tired, a little scattered, a little overwhelmed.

So I’m filling up on two things that really never fail me.

The Word and coffee.

A to the Men.

Happy Thursday.

Love your neighbor. One year looking back.

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It was a year ago tomorrow that we moved to Indiana and into our home. Today we celebrated Valentines Day with 4 families in our neighborhood and we had a wonderful time. There were 20 kids ages 1-15, some big families in attendance! We played silly games, made crafts and filled up on lots of sugar. Yep, good times had by all.

I am so thankful for where God has brought us in one year. He has poured out his love for us in countless ways looking back. Today was the perfect way to celebrate our one year housing anniversary. He has helped us make a new home, make friends and share his love with others. Last night we celebrated Brian’s birthday. We sat around a table with two other couples who we didn’t know last year at this time but now have become great friends. They are a part of our lives and we do life with them. Once again, his love is lavished upon us. He has answered prayers through and through. He has met us every step of the way. We are loved.

Happy Valentines Day to you. May you feel His love for you today and always and share it with others!

We love because He first loved us. 1 John 4:19

filled up to overflowing.

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Have you ever had that feeling of overwhelming thankfulness for something that you get to have and be a part of everyday? Like your family? Sure, I’m always thankful for these people that God has given me to do life with. But it’s not everyday that I am filled up and over flowing with thankfulness for them. There are days that go by that thankfulness is not the first thing off the top of my head when I am experiencing them.

But today I woke up with an overwhelming sense of thankfulness for my family. We are not perfect by any means. But we are a well oil machined in our own way. We have figured out what works for us. We laugh a lot, we cry some, we hug and wrestle, we listen and encourage one another. We mess up and hurt each others feelings. We forgive each other.  We are free to be ourselves around each other.

I love these 4 people that God has chosen to be my family. Today I am filled up and over flowing with thankfulness. It’s a real good feeling.

 

that’s what they said.

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Almost everyday one of the kids will say something that cracks me up. I’m sure they do not intend on being so funny but it sure does make their mama laugh. And each time I tell myself “Don’t forget that. Write that one down.” And you know. I don’t. And I forget it, within .2 seconds.

But…

Last week I was intentional about writing down their funny, little comments. For me to remember and to keep laughing and to now share with you.

Mason- After talking about bears hibernating “So where do they keep their food? In their bottoms, their belly, their legs?”

Theia- After reading a Star Wars book that says R2D2 knows every language she asks if he knows Amish.

Kaia- Out of nowhere she asks me “Do you like sitting in chairs?” I answer with a simple “yes” and off she goes.

Theia- “Even though Daddy sometimes spanks me I still love him infinity.”

Kaia- “I’m hungry. I’m hungry. This is the time I get hungry: 97 38 4 miles.” Do you know that time? Yeah, me either but apparently that’s when Kaia gets hungry.

Kaia- After we told her she cannot blow bubbles in car she said ” But we can’t do it outside. It’s so cold out. Winter will burst our bubbles!”

Mason- After praying at bedtime I told him I’m thankful for him he replied “Me too. I am thankful for me too.”

Oh I love my kidders!

Happy Monday!

 

Run2Him.

This week I’ve started a new bible study along with my “get up and get some time with God before the little people wake up” group. For the next 13 weeks I will be diving into the Psalms. A new one each week. I’m liking this. It will balance me out as I make my way through the early part of the OT. Still keeping on track for my goal in reading through the bible in a year. Sure it’s only the third week in January but this is where I usually start to sputter out. I’m not gonna lie, I don’t get everything I am reading in Exodus and sure the details of family lines and plagues of flies and gnats don’t apply to my everyday life. But I know that God will use my time in His word for His glory. It’s not going to waste. His Word fills me up, it pushes me through.

I am reminded of this truth this week in Run2Him. We are looking at Psalm 1. It talks about delighting in the word, meditating on it day and night. If so, we are strong, fruitful and do not wither. We prosper and He blesses us!

Good stuff friends. Good stuff!

 

the spin cycle.

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You know those times when doubt, fear, comparison fill your mind? It can come out of no where. Suddenly, so quickly your mind is filled with questions, comparisons and lies. And you are left spinning. Spinning downward.

How am I going to do this? Why are my kids acting like that NOW? What is she thinking of me? I don’t know what I am doing and I’m pretty sure everyone else does. Why can’t we have that? Why don’t I look like that after 3 kids? Why don’t I act that graciously when that happens to me? She probably doesn’t struggle with that. Yes, that family has it all together. I should do this, act that way and be a part of that. I’m sure she always does that and never does that.

and. the. list. goes. on. and. on.

It’s ugly isn’t it? And it can take us out like that! It happens to all of us. It’s true. Yes, even the seemingly “perfect person” that you constantly compare yourself too. They do the same thing.

And I do it too. I so easily can fall into this ugly spin cycle that gets me know where but feeling worse than where I started.

So what do you do to stop the spin cycle? One word. Truth. You set your mind on truth. You go to his Word. You talk to Him. You tell him it all. He listens. And slowly as you let it all out. Let it all go. The lies are replaced with truth. The anxiety is replaced with peace. There is grace and compassion for he knows. And yes, once more he stops the cycle and brings your focus back on him, where you can rest in him.

The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The Lord protects the simplehearted; when I was in in great need, he saved me. Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. Psalm 116:5-7