Once again I’m trying to find balance and routine as life continues to move on and change. Our weeks look a little different now with Mason in school. And to be honest this little four legged friend, named Obie has caused a little shift in my schedule as well. How and where do I spend my time wisely? What’s best for me and our family? There are so many things I want to do but only so many things I have time and energy for. At least if I want to serve my family well and take care of myself. I’m learning I have limits. Yes, hard for me to acknowledge and admit but true. This is where my pride likes to show it’s ugly face. My days of saying yes to everything, and going 90 mph are coming to a close. No guarantees I won’t revert back in times of weakness (insert grace). I will always be a mover and shaker, multi-tasking and loving it but I am seeing there is wisdom in what I choose to do if I want to be in this game for the long haul.
So how does one do this? Well I am trying to figure that out but I think it has something to do with prayer, grace, and saying no. Praying about things before I saying yes. Praying for wisdom in how I spend my time each day, who I give my time to. Giving grace to myself when I mess up. Asking for God’s grace in this process. Saying no to people that I love or would really like to know. Saying no to people that I don’t want to let down or to people that I want to think well of me. It means saying no to things that I would love to do and be a part of but just can’t.
Ugh. It’s even hard to type. Have you guessed it? I’m a people pleaser. Sigh. It makes this whole thing that much harder.
But I know this is where I am at. What God is clearly showing me.
And it’s time to pull the trigger.