last week brian was out of town. i’m pleased to say that overall my week went really well with the kids. but that doesn’t mean we ALL weren’t ready to see daddy when he came home. even though the week went well we seemed to have had more than usual talks about obedience. you know why we obey the first time, what obedience is, why we don’t disobey, how disobedience makes God sad and shows mommy disrespect. you get the point, any possible way i could explain it, we covered it all… multiple times throughout the day. even though it didn’t seemed to be really making a difference i knew the kids were hearing me. theia so nicely pointed out that when i was gone a couple of days and they were with daddy they didn’t disobey at all, we listen to daddy but we don’t listen to you. i know! i so honestly exclaimed. why not?!? (it was at the end of the day and i was a little tired, can you tell?)
they next morning mason quietly came up to me and apologized for not listening the previous day. such a sweet guy, he is always good about making amends. he then went on to explain that he wants the “Jesus” part of him to come out more but “himself’ just keeps coming out. “it’s hard mommy to choose Jesus over me.” oh, wow! did he just get it or what? the daily struggle we all face. how i wanted to assure his concerned heart that it would get easier. and i guess in some ways it does as you walk daily with Jesus. but really it’s what i struggle with too, “wanting the Jesus part of me to come out more”. it was a moment that i will be remember for a long time, hopefully always. i told him i have a hard time with the same thing and we are fighting the same battle and thankfully Jesus loves us just the same. He understands and wants to help us. i think hearing that i have a hard time with the same thing was a relief to him. because it’s always good to hear that you’re not the only one who doesn’t have it all together…no matter what age you are.
i’m so thankful for opportunities like this one when i get to learn alongside my kids. when i get to help them through their struggles and share my own. when i can point them to Jesus who really does get it. i’m thankful that we are in it together.